Ellony Lynn's Deepest Thoughts

my new journal....

2005-07-12T04:23:28Z

so, this is my new journal...
whymustibelieve

add me... it will be friends only, so comment to be added.

if i didn't add you or forgot about you, just comment.
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well, tired of this journal

2005-07-12T03:14:50Z

so... i'm tired of this journal. I want to create a new one, but i don't know what to call it... when i get it figured out, i shall let you know... and it will be mostly friends only... because i plan to write in it way more.

This is fucking crazy.

2005-07-08T01:09:58Z

My friend's friend Morgan found this. I'm calling, and fowarding it to my friends. Morgie put her responses to the nonsense in bold. "If your child is a gothic, reform through the lord" Listed below are some warning signs to indicate if your child may have gone astray from the Lord.

Gothic (or goth) is a very obscure [Not that obscure!] and often dangerous culture that young teenagers are prone to participating in. The gothic culture leads young, susceptible minds into an imagined world of evil, darkness, and violence [kind of like certain types of Christianity].

Please seek immediate attention through counselling, prayer, and parental guidance to rid your child of Satan's temptations if five or more of the following are applicable to your child [Four or less and it's okay, or something else]:

-Frequently wears black clothing. Everyone in New York City is a Goth, as are mimes and puppeteers!

-Wears band and/or rock t-shirts. As you can infer, even NON-rock bands are Goth.

-Wears excessive black eye makeup, lipstick or nailpolish. But how much is too much?

-Wears any odd, silver jewelry or symbols. Some of these include: reversed crosses, pentagrams, pentacles, ankhs or various other Satanic worshipping symbols. It is well known that the ancient Egyptians worshipped Satan. Note: Odd jewelry only counts if it's silver.

-Shows an interest in piercings or tattoos. "Hey, awesome Jesus tattoo. ...Oh shit, now I'm a Goth."

-Listens to gothic or any other anti-social genres of music. (Marilyn Manson claims to be the anti-Christ, and publicly speaks against the Lord. Please discard any such albums IMMEDIATELY.) I wonder what the other "anti-social" genres are.

-Associates with other people that dress, act or speak eccentrically. So like... everybody I know.

-Shows a declining interest in wholesome activities, such as: the Bible, prayer, church or sports. Sports are automatically wholesome? What about football, where the boys are always patting each other's butts and showering with each other? Actually, don't they shower together in most sports?

-Shows an increasing interest in death, vampires, magic, the occult, witchcraft or anything else that involves Satan. Yo. Real witches don't believe in Satan.

-Takes drugs. -Drinks alcohol. Because the rich Christian kids at the private Christian school near my house totally aren't known all over the Metro area for selling drugs and drinking excessively.

-Is suicidal and/or depressed. No, no. Goths pretend to be depressed and suicidal for attention.

-Cuts, burns or partakes in any other method of self-mutilation. (This is a Satanic ritual that uses pain to detract from the light of God and His love. Please seek immediate attention for this at your local mental health center.) I'm sure some folks on my list will be surprised to learn that their cutting is actually a Satanic ritual. Hey, didn't some saints see pain and torture as holy? I'm not up on my twisted Catholic logic. Maybe it only counts if someone else is doing it.

-Complains of boredom. ....

-Sleeps too excessively or too little. If you sleep just the right amount, you're safe!

-Is excessively awake during the night. Insomniac=Goth.

-Dislikes sunlight or any other form of light. (This pertains to vampires promoting the idea that His light is of no use.) That WAS what that vampire told me that one time.

-Demands an unusual amount of privacy. What's an unusual amount, I'd like to know? This seems really odd for teenagers!

-Spends large amounts of time alone. What are "large amounts"?

-Requests time alone and quietness. (This is so that your chid may speak to evil sprits through meditation.)Okay, haven't we said about the same thing here three times? I think we get it. I'm not even dignifying the meditation slam with a remark.

-Insists on spending time with friends while unaccompanied by an adult. All the normal teens think it's swell to have dear old dad hang around at the sock hop.

-Disregards authority figures; teachers, priests, nuns and elders are but a few examples of this. No, no, that's punks.

-Misbehaves at school. Jocks who beat up geeks=Goth.

-Misbehaves at home. Everybody=Goth.

-Eats excessively or too little. ...I was unaware that this was a Goth trait. I'm intrigued.

-Eats goth-related foods. Count Dracula cereal is an example of this. Oh, now, come on. I wonder if anyone really believes that people that eat Count CHOCULA cereal (let's at least get the name right -- unless there's some cool Count Dracula cereal I don't know about! "Now with marshmallow clots!") are Goths and therefore Satanists. If I eat Fruity Pebbles does that mean I'm Wilma Flintstone? If I eat Organic HempPlus Granola does that make me a goddamn hippie? Well, yes.

-Drinks blood or expresses an interest in drinking blood. (Vampires believe this is how to attain Satan. This act is very dangerous and should be stopped immediately.)Aw, come on. Don't you know that stuff on Jerry Springer is fake? (Yes, I know there are people who really do like drinking blood.)

-Watches cable television or any other corrupted media sources. (Ask your local church for proper programs that your child may watch.) What are the "other corrupted media sources"? Or rather, are there NON-corrupted media sources? I thought Fox News was okay for these people.

-Plays videos games that contains violence or role-playing nature. Role-playing is of the devil!

-Uses the internet excessively and frequently makes time for the computer. Nerd/everyone I know=Goth.

-Makes Satanic symbols and/or violently shakes head to music. But they're saying "I love you" in sign language!

-Dances to music in a provocative or sexual manner. Yeah, those Goths with their stupid sexy dancing!
-Expresses an interest in sex. Average Human=Goth.

-Masturbates Goths wrote the book on masturbating, man. Also, I think we have more of an explanation for the thrice-mentioned "private time" criterion.

-Is homosexual and/or bisexual. (Do I have to say it?) Gay or Bi=Goth.

-Pursues dangerous cult religions. Such include: Satanism, Scientology, Philosophy, Paganism, Wicca, Hinduism and Buddhism.
Um. Philosophy is not a cult religion; it's a generally useless college major. Hinduism and Buddhism? NOT CULTS. Methinks someone's jealous of the vast numbers of Buddhists and Hindus. I gotta agree on the Scientology, but I'm shocked that "Darwinism" (now it's a religion!) isn't listed. Then again, I do seem to be under the impression that Catholics are more likely to accept evolution.

-Wears pins, stickers or anything else that contains these various phrases: "I'm so gothic, I'm dead", "woe is me", "I'm a goth". "I'm a Goth" is a fucking clever-ass button, dude.

-Claims to be a goth. ....Well, there you go, then.

If five or more of these apply to your child, please intervene immediately. The gothic culture is dangerous and Satan thrives within it. If any of these problems persist, enlist your child into your local mental health center.

"Enlist"? ~St. Mary's Catholic Church"

In conclusion, we are all Goths. Now, go have your parents enlist you at the local mental health center! OK NOW IT'S TIME FOR THE GOOD PART.

I know some of you are either really really pissed or pissing your pants with laughter.. Either way...wanna get back at these fuckers? I know I do... This is why I have taken the liberty of obtaining the address of the church that originally published this piece of shit.... Feel FREE to blast them with anything. Call them and hang up...or if you're a brave one? Call them and tell them what idiots they are...OR mail them a little...*heheheh* REMINDER that there are more people out there than their little precious brainwashed sheep-children. :) Let the sending and/or calling begin!!!
St Mary's Catholic Cathedral
(719) 473-4633
22 W Kiowa St.
Colorado Springs, CO

I found this floating around on GreatestJournal, so I had to post it on LiveJournal, because it is a piece of shit that I would like to share with others.

ellony_lynn @ 2005-07-07T20:37:00

2005-07-08T00:42:26Z

so... a real update.

First of all, I have to apologize to </a></b></a>

THANKS FOR THE LAYOUT!

2005-07-05T01:51:33Z

new cool thing stolen from britt

2005-06-30T14:45:31Z

Here's a RULES:
1. Pick your birth month.
2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold the 5 that best apply to you.
4. Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a cut.

first of all, could'nt figure out how to strike out something, so i italicized the ones that don't apply. and second of all, it wouldn't let me cut the text for some reason.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Doesn't care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairovoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves the outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but those not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Supertitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical. that I took from secretagentpata because I was bored. Even though I should be sleeping.

Stole this from someone else...

2005-06-06T14:33:47Z

A - Age you got your first kiss: 11
B - Band listening to right now: Bleeding Through
C - Crush: TERRY
D - Dad's name: Keith
E - Easiest person to talk to: Terry
F - Favorite bands at the moment: all of the same ones I have had for a while now...
G - gummy worms or gummy bears? BEARS. BUT NOT THE GREEN ONES.
H - Hometown: Morgantown. WV.
I - Instruments: I sing, and peck on the piano
K - Kids: Want some someday. 2.
L - Longest car ride ever: Here to Myrtle Beach.
M - Mom's name: Kathy
N - Nicknames: I have some. Actually a bunch.
O - One wish: to become a published writer.
P - Phobia[s]: don't really have any.
Q - Quote: "It's like they're having a toaster sale at Macy's. Randolph's ass- Aisle 3.." (Death To Smoochy) I also watched Orgasmo the other day. YOU HAVE TO SEE THAT MOVIE. IT IS FUCKING AMAZING...as well as "Team America:World Police." "America- FUCK YEAH. Coming again to save the mother fucking day, yeah."
R - Reason to smile: I'm in love.
S - Song you sang last: "Ain't No Mountain High Enough" - ha ha
T - Time you woke up [today]: 9 ish, had to go to Fairmont State with Terry. That's where i am right now.
U - Unknown fact about me: I am a metalhead, but I have a big weakness for Coldplay and Matchbox Twenty.
V - Vegetable you hate: Spinach.
W - Worst habit(s): Biting my nails.
X - X-rays you've had: I guess my chest when i had pneumonia.
Y - Yummy food: Pasta.
Z - Zodiac sign: SCORPIO, bitch.

So....

2005-05-23T13:16:30Z

So... I find this journal on a random journal search, and i discover that this journal is amazing, awesome and very happy. She is so cool, even though she hasn't updated in a while.

Anyway, I found this quote from Vincent Van Gogh on her LJ.

IT IS AMAZING, AND I AM OFFICIALLY STEALING IT AS MY NEW FAVORITE QUOTE.

I know nothing

with any certainty,

but the sight of stars

makes me dream.

(Vincent Van Gogh)

Let's see what I am

2005-04-13T15:51:43Z

--Goth--

Do you wear black eyeliner: Yep
How much black clothing do you own: Probably about 50% of my wardrobe
Do you think about death often: Yeah
Do you want to die: No
Are you a social outcast: Sort of.
Are you pale: Not really.. kind of.
Do you cut: No
Do you like Hot Topic: love Hot Topic. Best store in the world.

--Skater Punk--

Can you skateboard: nope.
How often do you go into Vans: i dont know what that means
What's your sneaker brand: I don't know.
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends: what fun is life without stupid stuff?
Are long skater haircuts cute: not really
How much do you get in trouble: hardly ever
Do you listen to the bands who are considered "posers": Never
How many piercings do you have: None

--Prep--

How often do you say the word "like": not as much as I used to
Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch: HELL NO
Are the A&F models hot: I've never looked at them
How often do you wear makeup: maybe once or twice a week
Ever had a manicure: nope
Rock music is bad, right: WRONG
Are you ever ditzy: not really
Do you own high heels: do my Goth boots count?
Have you ever said "oh my gosh": maybe when i was little

--Hippie--

Is your hair long: sort of
Are you a vegetarian: no
Do you own a tye dye shirt: Nope
Do you want peace: OF COURSE
Do you want to save the animals: sure!
What do you think about the war: Totally unfounded. Hate George Bush.
Have you ever made a peace sign with your two fingers: Yeah

--Gangsta--

Are you from the ghetto: No.
Do you own "bling bling": no.
What do you think about do-rags: They are the stupidest invention.
Do you like rap: NO
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world: I don't know.
What do you think about afros: they're hilarious. Especially on Macy Grey (I'll go with Tagan) Plus, Rahmene's was cool
Have you ever said "fo shizzle": No.
How about "oh, snap son": Probably not.

--Frat--

Is life a party: sure!
How often do you get drunk: Never been drunk
What's the point of getting drunk anyway: The point of getting drunk is so you can get someone in bed, i think.
Do you care about your grades: Yeah
Do you need an attitude adjustment: Nope.

--Emo--

How often do you cry: maybe like once a week.
Do you have an ex: yes
Do you have an acoustic guitar: nope, i dont play
Are you emotional: yes
Do you like soft music: yes
Do people understand you: most of the time
Do you write your own songs: Poems

--Jock--

Do you play any sports: Nope
How important are they to you: Not very
How important is your reputation: not very
Do you pick on the geeky kids: sometimes.
Are you considered a bully by anyone: nope

--Geek--

Do you wear glasses: Nope. contacts
Do you get good grades: most of the time
Are you smart: about some stuff
Do you use an inhaler: No.
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets: no, who does that
Does your mom pick out your clothes: nope.
How often are you on the computer: like 25% of the day

well, let's see... i think i'm Goth/Hippie/Emo

cool thing taken from a random journal i found

2005-04-12T15:41:04Z

From lil_cabbages's and fatigued_canary's posts:
on your current playlist, hit shuffle & pick the first twenty songs on the list [no matter how cheesy or embarrassing], & write down your favourite line(s) of the song. try to avoid putting the song title in the line. then, have your friends comment & see if they know the songs.

She was a lying mother, I couldn't make her see...
You give me that funny feeling in my tummy... oh shit yeah...
empty hearts want to believe-- the fight is for humanity
some of them want to abuse you.. some of them want to be abused
I reject all the biblical views of the truth.. dismiss it as the folklore of the time.
See who gives a FUCK!
It's mighty strange-- you're looking at the leafy range..
this is your time to pay, this is your judgement day. we made a sacrifice and now we get to take your life.
suffering.. yeah it's the only thing here that's left for you. nothing, yeah that's the only thing you're ever gonna FUCKING do.
You know it's true god hates this place you know it's true he hates this race.
Imagine there's no heaven, it's easy if you try.. no hell below us above us only sky.
12. shock! it's all in your head!
taken under the wings of the dead
i will take vengeance upon mine enemies
you don't know peace 'til you've had suffering... all of your so-called reason, but you haven't tasted pain.
nothing was supposed to hurt like this. missing you was always one more kiss. there's nothing i can do. one more nail in the coffin and it's all for you.
she was a precious lie that i'd always dreamed of. she turned lust into love.
the first word of this song is SUICIDE. that's my favorite line.
life's short and hard like a bodybuilding elf.. so save the planet and kill yourself!
emptiness is lonlieness and loneliness is cleanliness and cleanliness is godliness and god is empty just like me!!
Now guess what they are.. :)
I'll post the answers friends only next.

survey.. woo hoo

2005-04-06T15:19:25Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Kara
Birthday:	10-24-86
Birthplace:	Charleston, WV
Current Location:	Morgantown, WV
Eye Color:	Green/Blue
Hair Color:	was black, but faded to brown
Height:	5'2 1/2"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	italian, indian, german, norweigan
The Shoes You Wore Today:	my favorite green sandals
Your Weakness:	crying
Your Fears:	dying and losing terry
Your Perfect Pizza:	Meat Lover's-- Extra Cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	pass Psychology and get my tattoo... which is posted on LJ
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	what's up?
Thoughts First Waking Up:	what time is it?
Your Best Physical Feature:	my eyes
Your Bedtime:	11 or 12
Your Most Missed Memory:	Singing in the hallways with Britt
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke, most def.
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDonald's. I can't be a traitor
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lip-i-ton. that's how Megan says it.
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Strawberry
Cappuccino or Coffee:	french vanilla Capp.
Do you Smoke:	occasionally i will have a cigar. Yes. I am that kind of woman
Do you Swear:	Of course
Do you Sing:	of course
Do you Shower Daily:	of course
Have you Been in Love:	Always. I'm always in love.
Do you want to go to College:	I am right now!
Do you want to get Married:	I am planning on that right now!
Do you belive in yourself:	For the most part.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Nope.
Do you think you are Attractive:	Yeah. I used to not think so though
Are you a Health Freak:	Nope. How can i be? Remember where i work?
Do you get along with your Parents:	Yeah
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yeah
Do you play an Instrument:	Nope. wish i did
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yeah.
In the past month have you Smoked:	Nope.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yeah.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Like almost every day.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	I wish
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Nope. Yucky.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Nope.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Of course not.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	Nope.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Yep.
Ever been Drunk:	Nope.
Ever been called a Tease:	Yeah.
Ever been Beaten up:	Nope.
Ever Shoplifted:	Yep. Stealing/shoplifting, same thing
How do you want to Die:	in my bed in the arms of someone i love
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a writer
What country would you most like to Visit:	Italy
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue
Favourite Hair Color:	Black
Short or Long Hair:	Long
Height:	why does it matter
Weight:	why does it matter
Best Clothing Style:	freak
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none
Number of CDs I own:	about 200
Number of Piercings:	none
Number of Tattoos:	none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	only a few
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

ellony_lynn @ 2005-04-06T11:04:00

2005-04-06T15:07:02Z

This is what i am going to get tattooed around my ankle when i get the money this summer. I am in love with this book and the Elvish script on the ring is gorgeous.

ONE RING TO RULE THEM ALL

ONE RING TO FIND THEM

ONE RING TO BRING THEM ALL

AND IN THE DARKNESS BIND THEM

That's what that says. And my hair.. i'm going to do it black until my tips. I am going to bleach them and dye them bright red. It will be awesome!

survey stolen from Crazypunk48

2005-04-06T14:50:40Z

10 YEARS AGO I
1. Was 8
2. Was probably in 3rd or 4th grade
3. thought if i said "bloody mary" 4 times, she'd appear in my bathroom mirror

FIVE YEARS AGO I
1. Was in 8th grade
2. thought the world revolved around my group of friends
3. was way too into boy bands for my liking

TWO YEARS AGO I
1. fell in love with a man that i truly hate now. (Mike)
2. found out that people are not what they seem
3. wished that my life would change

ONE YEAR AGO I
1. was in love with Terry...still am. we had been together for 6 months
2. was preparing for graduation
3. Was doing the countdown to go to college

YESTERDAY I
1. slept in until 12
2. didn't go to class, because it was a beautiful day
3. realized how much I really love terry... just like every day

TODAY I
1. woke up early
2. am happy to be alive
3. decided what my tattoo was going to be when i get it this summer. (I'll find a picture of it and post it.)

TOMORROW I WILL
1. try to get my major changed
2. kiss Terry goodbye before I do that...
3. actually go to class

5 SNACKS I ENJOY
1. Little Debbie cakes
2. Macaroni-and-cheese
3. pop tarts
4. chicken wings
5. bananas

5 THINGS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT
1. Terry
2. Music
3. Truth
4. Writing
5. a good book to read

FIVE THINGS I WOULD BUY WITH $1,000
1. lots of clothes from Hot Topic
2. new hair dye, and do whatever i wanted with my hair. (Have to tell you about that later!!)
3. I would try to build/buy terrry a building to wrestle in
4. More books... including the entire C.S. Lewis "Chronicles of Narnia" collection, as well as the entire Harry Potter set.
5. Dinner at Hibachi's.

FIVE BAD HABITS I HAVE
1. Nailbiting
2. not getting my homework done
3. not going to class
4. being too truthful sometimes
5. not calling my friends enough

FIVE THINGS I WOULD NEVER WEAR
1. a tube-top
2. Abercrombie & Fitch
3. Hollister
4. too many bright colors
5. things that make me look fat

FIVE SHOWS I LIKE
1. Viva La Bam
2. Jackass
3. Degrassi: The Next Generation
4. King of The Hill
5. Aqua Teen Hunger Force

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Italian
2. Indian
3. German

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. really big dogs
2. losing terry
3. dying, because it scares me that some things may be true that people believe in.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Forget-me-not (Amy Brown) perfume from Hot Topic
2. Terry
3. Music

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Pajama bottoms
2. cute pink underwear
3. my Withouteyes T-shirt

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Slipknot
2. Devildriver
3. Bleeding Through

FIVE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Slipknot "Heretic Anthem"
2. Lamb of God "Laid to Rest"
3. Bleeding Through "On Wings of Lead"
4. Himsa "Your Sweet Six Six Six"
5. Withouteyes "Dark Have Been My Dreams"

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Honesty
3. lots of hugs and kisses
(All of which I have)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Eyes
2. Hair
3. Smile

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Draw
2. seem to keep money once i get it
3. Finish writing once I get started

FIVE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Writing
2. Reading
3. kissing Terry
4. Listening to music
5. Watching movies

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Make out.
2. see how my friend's baby is coming along
3. go outside and play tag

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. English Teacher/Professor
2. Author
3. Manager at McDonald's.. yeah right. i want to work in a bookstore. when Barnes & Noble opens, the position is mine!!

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Italy
2. Ireland
3. England

FOUR KID'S NAMES (2 BOY, 2 GIRL):
1. Sid
2. Mace
3. Ginger
4. Zoe

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Get married
2. Have babies
3. Write a best-selling book. (in collaboration with Britt or Neil Gaiman)

ellony_lynn @ 2005-03-26T08:37:00

2005-03-26T16:46:38Z

I have kissed someone...

* on the cheek. -plenty of people
* on the lips. - plenty of people
* on their hands or fingers. - Terry
* in my room. - ex named Dennis
* in their room. - Terry
* of the same sex. - BmB Babe # 2
* of the opposite sex. - Terry and many more
* younger than me. - lots of guys
* older than me. - lots of guys
* with jet black hair. - Terry
* with curly hair.
* with blonde hair & blue eyes. - Brittie
with flaming red hair.
* with straight hair. - Terry and a few more
* smaller/shorter than me. - Steven
* bigger/taller than me. - Terry and a bunch more
with a lip ring.
who was drunk.
who was high.
* who I had just met. - Andy
* who was homosexual. - Erik
* who I didn't really want to kiss. - can't remember but i know i have
* on a holiday. - Terry on like every one.
who was going out with someone close to me.
* who was my good friend's brother or sister. - Steven
who had been/is in jail.
in a graveyard.
* at a show/concert. - Terry at Ozzfest
at the beach.
* in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water. - Terry
* who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with. - Steven
* with dyed hair. - everybody, basically
with a shaved head.
* who was/is my good friend. -Andy, Erik, Terry, BMB Babe, Dane, pretty much everyone
* who was/is in a band. - Terry used to be, so did Dane
* who has tattoos. Dennis,
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain.
on another continent besides where I was born.
* with an accent. - doesn't everybody have an accent?
with an std.
on a boat.
* in a car/taxi/bus. - Terry, Mike, Chris... probably more.
on a plane.
* at the circus/carnival. Terry
with a missing body part.
* in the movies. - all kinds of people.
* eskimo style. - Terry...

Now you all know all my kissing habits. Telling who they are was optional

ellony_lynn @ 2004-12-06T19:57:00

2004-12-07T01:02:50Z

hey guys.

damn. it's been a while.

i don't know what to say. I've been really, really busy with crappy internet service.

Terry and I are still fine. Mom's in the hospital right now with pneumonia. But she's going to be fine.

I've been working my ass off all the time. Finals are next week. When i'm not at school I'm either working or studying.

I have NO free time whatsoever. And with christmas around the corner, I have to start shopping, too. Brittie still needs a present

BTW. BRITT AND KELLY---

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOO sorry i had to go so fast the other day. I know Brittie was upset and I feel like shit that i had to go so fast. I love you both more than words could ever say. I PROMISE.

BABY'S DUE NEXT MONTH. I'll bet Kelly's ready for that.

Ha ha. I love you guys so much. Sorry I haven't posted in so long.

BRITT--- CHECK YOUR E-MAIL. and read through the comments on your journal.

Love you guys....

Later.

Kara Lynn *Bell* -- one of these days it will be --

Whiskey Lullaby- my new favorite country song

2004-11-11T00:25:23Z

~ Whiskey Lullaby ~ Brad Paisley and Allison Krauss

She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night

1st Chorus
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby

(Sing lullaby)

The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night

2nd Chorus
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby

(Sing lullaby)

Lamb of God fucking rules. They were awesome at Ozzfest.

2004-11-11T00:22:03Z

~ Laid To Rest~

If There Was A Single Day I Could Live,
A Single Breath I Could Take,
I'd Trade All The Others Away.

The Blood's On The Wall,
So You Might As Well Just Admit It.
And Bleach Out The Stains,
Commit To Forgetting It.
You're Better Off Empty And Blank,
Then Left With A Single Pathetic Trace Of This.

Smother Another Failure
Lay This To Rest

Console Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself,
See Who Gives A Fuck.

Absorb Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself.

I'll Chain You To The Truth,
For The Truth Shall Set You Free.
I'll Turn The Screws Of Vengence,
And Bury You With Honesty.

I'll Make All Your Dreams Come To Life,
Then Slay Them As Quickly As They Came,

Smother Another Failure
Lay This To Rest

Console Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself,
See Who Gives A Fuck.

Absorb Yourself,
You're Better Alone,
Destroy Yourself.

See Who Gives A Fuck.
See Who Gives A Fuck.
See Who Gives A Fuck.

Failure.

If There Was A Day I Could Live,
If There Was A Single Breath I Could Take,
I'd Trade All The Others Away,
I'd Trade All The Others Away.

YAY!

2004-11-11T00:14:39Z

i'm moving in with Terry tomorrow.

Wish me luck, guys. Not that I'll need it.

If you want the number there.. ask Brittie. She knows it.

~ I almost cried writing this. Hope you like it! ~

2004-11-09T04:09:38Z

Braxton sunk to the floor in a mess of tears. The test that she held in her hand had a plus sign in bright pink written on its surface.

"Oh my god. What the hell am I supposed to do? I can't have his child. He would never want a child now. He told me he didn't want a child for a few years." She picked up her hairbrush and slammed it against the mirror. It cracked into a million peices.

Just as she did this, there was that familiar knock on the door. She wiped her tears quickly, threw the test in the trash, and went to answer it. Tristan stood on the other side of the door, smiling with that beautiful smile.

"Tristan. What are you doing here?"

"Coming to pick you up for dinner. Didn't you remember, baby?"

"Umm.. yeah. Let me get my coat."

Tristan sighed. "What's wrong? I can tell when something's wrong with you."

"Nothing. It's nothing. I love you."

" I love you, too."

"Baby, do you want to come in for a few minutes? I know I don't look like I should be going to dinner."

"You look like you've been crying. Have you?"

"No. I just didn't get much sleep last night. That's all."

" I don't believe you. Now come and sit down with me and tell me what's wrong." Tristan grabbed her hand and began to pull her towards the couch.

"I can't." Braxton pulled away from him and wiped away a runaway tear.

"Why not?"

"I- I just can't." Braxton realized she had gotten herself in a mess this time.

"All right. Well, you can contemplate telling me while I go use the bathroom."

"Baby- no. Don't go in there."

"Why?"

Braxton sighed, as another tear fell. "I broke the mirror earlier, and I haven't cleaned it up yet."

"Brax- you only break things when you're mad or really, really upset. Now I will not leave until you tell me what is wrong."

"Okay.. I'll tell you what it is...." she sighed and knew she couldn't tell him that she was pregnant. But she had to tell him something. "Kya's pregnant. But don't tell her I told you."

"That's all it is?"

"Yeah. But i'm really, really worried."

"Oh, come here baby." Tristan wrapped Braxton in a gigantic hug. "I thought it was something about us, like you were pregnant or something."

"No. No baby. Can you help me clean up this glass?"

"Sure. But then I'm taking you to your favorite restaurant."

~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ *~ *~ *~ *~ *~ * ~ *~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~

(after the scene where Kya and Brax discover each of them is pregnant)

"YOU DID WHAT?" Kya screamed.

" I told him you were pregnant."

"Why would you tell him that?"

"Because I didn't want him to know about me. I didn't think that he would want any kids. He told me he wouldn't want any for a long time. I didn't know he would die so soon. I wish he would have known." She collapsed into tears in Kya's arms.

After Kya held her for a while, Kya asked Braxton the question that she had always wondered about.

"Brax- what exactly did that letter that he left you say? I know it was always personal- between you two- but I always wanted to know."

"I'll tell you. I have it memorized.. I've read it so many times." Braxton closed her eyes and recited this:

My dearest Braxton,

Words can never express what you mean to me.

I always wanted to marry you, and have children with you. I just couldn't find the courage to tell you, because I didn't think you were ready yet. I always imagined the white-picket fence with four dogs, you know.

I loved you with all my heart. Nothing will ever change that.

Please don't think that this had anything to do with you. The world pushed down on me too much. I wish that things could have been different.

I never wanted you to see my imperfections. I always wanted to be perfect for you. I'm sorry you had to see this one. If you get this letter, you have learned my biggest fear. Imperfection. I never wanted to be anything less than perfect for you.

Do you remember that day in the park when you danced in the snow? Remember me just like you saw me that day. I don't want my memory to be tarnished in your mind at all.

When you think of me, remember my smile and my kiss. They were saved for you and only you.

I love you. Keep me in your heart. If there is a heaven, I'll wait for you there.

Love, Tristan.

"Oh god. What did i do, Kya? What did I do to him? He left me with so many unanswered questions."

"You didn't do anything."

"Yeah- I didn't do anything. And that's why he died. Maybe if he had known I was pregnant, he would have found the will to live."

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Braxton threw a glass of gin at the door in a drunken rage. "GET THE FUCK OUT!" she screamed.

Adrian slammed the door, trying to avoid the glass flying straight for his head. As soon as he heard it crash, he opened the door, shaking.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" he asked.

"I said... 'Get the fuck out!!!'" She reached for the thing nearest to her, her hairbrush, but Adrian ducked and crawled across the floor to her. He grabbed her hands in passion, trying to figure out what was wrong.

"Braxton... Just tell me what is the matter?" She struggled to get out of his grasp. She wept, as she realized there was no way she would be able to. How could she tell him that she had lied to him?

"Adrian... Just... Leave. Go. I never want to see you again."

ellony_lynn @ 2004-11-08T19:52:00

2004-11-09T00:54:22Z

so i changed my background picture again.

It reminds me of * In the Bathtub *

Here it is for you guys who are too lazy to click on the link to my journal.

It's beautiful

God, it's been forever since I've posted.

2004-11-09T00:31:27Z

well, I haven't posted in forever...

i'm such a procrastinator. I'm writing an LJ entry when i should be writing my eight-page paper. OOPS.

I miss you guys lots.

Specially Britt.

YAY!

2004-11-04T18:27:39Z

so... i found a gorgeous dress today!! and it's so beautiful on me. i'll post wedding pictures after march.

short post

2004-11-04T02:43:04Z

Wow. I never knew weddings were so hard to plan.

This is crazy!!

ellony_lynn @ 2004-11-02T17:59:00

2004-11-02T23:18:38Z

wow. it's been FOREVER since i posted. It's been a busy few days, guys. *sighs* so you want to know what i've been up to?

1. Terry and I decided to get married. At the courthouse in December. My mom hated the idea... (yes, i FINALLY told her we were engaged....and then i told her we wanted to get married. at the courthouse.) She flipped her lid. She told me that she wanted to have me a wedding. She insisted, in fact. So we are now planning a wedding. It will take place on our spring break...

MARCH 12TH. Yep. That's a Saturday.

I already found me a dress. That's amazing. But it needed to be done soon if it would take 10-12 weeks to ship here.

So here's the problem with that. March is good for snow. But it's the only time we'd get a honeymoon. And we don't want to wait until summer. That's a DEFINITE no. So... March it is. That's all. March is going to be our wedding. I just pray it doesn't snow.

2. Terry and I went to a sucky Halloween party. But that's not too bad.

3. Terry wants me to move in with him A.S.A.P. That's pretty cool... but it sucks for other reasons.

So here's what else I have to get done:

1. discuss this wedding with my potential bridesmaids (Britt... Kelly... Megan... Ashley.) and find out if they will have the finances to get a gown. If not, maybe we can help out a little.

2. TELL MY DAD. That's happening tonight. I have to see if he's going to help me pay for the wedding. If not, it may not happen the way we want it to. I don't see why he'd refuse, though. All we're asking him for is money to take care of the food, a dress for Meg, and a tux for him. That's all.

3. start going through my stuff so i can get all moved in with Terry.

4. Get my half paid for my gown. (It's NOT white... Ha...my wedding will NOT be traditional. Did you really think it would be???)

5. Call my uncle and see if he will marry us in a different church if it snows there. His church is in the sticks. And i also have to set up those counseling sessions with them.

6. Tell my mom that Terry has an interview at Krogers... at 10 in the morning.

7. Tell my mom that I'll be moving out sooner than she expected.

8. Terry's mom wants 200 dollars a month for me to live there. I have problems with that. #1 problem---- my paychecks are only 180 dollars where I'm working now. MAX. because i only work weekends. that's a entire paycheck plus some! if she wants that in a lump sum at the beginning of the month, i'll have problems doing that. #2 problem---- i WILL NOT cost her 200 bucks a month. Wanna know why? The only thing she's paying for for me is my food and what little water i use. #3 problem with that--- when i get a car, i will have to pay the car insurance on it. That will take up both my paychecks easily... and I won't have 200 dollars to pay her...

9. I could go on and on... but I think I'll stop there for now.

So, that's what's been going on in my life lately. A lot, huh?

going on a blind date

2004-10-28T22:44:25Z

going on a date with myself is sure to be lots of fun. i'll give the extra plastic surgery coupon to Britt... ha ha. not that she needs it.

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Your date is wearing	dirty jeans and a ripped t-shirt
You dine	at your favorite dive
Then you spend the next three hours	sitting in complete silence
Before taking you home, your date gives you	two coupons for discount cosmetic surgery
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